Monday, September 17, 2007
I have not really blogged for a really long time cause i seriously can't be bothered. Sorry to my avid readers out there(i bet there are none). From the title of my post.......how ironic.......you can sorta figure that this will be a very
emo post. It came to me with such a swift impact and gave me a rather rude awakening. Frankly, i seem like a really crazy crazy do stupid stuff kinda person but my main main principle is that i really value friendship (with people i like obviously). Of course sometimes my behaviour towards such people points to the contrary, but i seriously, enjoy the time spent with such people. But i think i am living in this highly romanticized world where i see the world in a myopic way. Often, i take for granted that what people show on the outside is really what they feel inside. Maybe i have low
EQ or whatever.i began thinking what if all my friends simply paint this facade and put on this pretence and all i know about them is nothing. I spent 4 years or more knowing just the mere veneer that isn't a true projection of their own self and emotion. Seriously i have a giant fear of such superficiality! I hate having superficial friends. Maybe i am fearful of the fact i am wasting my life making superficial friends. But apparently, NOW, friends who i tot were really good buddies begin to seem like superficial friends. All along i have been under this dark
unfathomably large cloud thinking that these people are my real good pals. While in actual fact they dun really view me as their real close friends or etc. It's kinda hard to swallow but i guess its just life.......people drift apart......people separate.....but it sure as hell is hard to swallow. Haiz....i shall listen to more emo music and continue indulging myself in emotional purging. so cathartic.......
Because That Small Cute Flute Guy Says So!
6:41 AM
